i love my family and friends more then anything, even when it doesn't seem like it. i don't have many friends, most of them turned on me cause i made a mistake. okay i made a few mistakes but thats me i can never do anything right. im honest. i hate lieing to people but i do it anyways. i've had 3 eating disorders in my life. i just finished the third. lets hope theres not a forth. i cut. i've stabbed myself. i've pullede the trigger, not noing it wasen't loaded. i love being outside at night. its exhilarating. i love stars. they're gorgeous. i always wonder if stars can hear everything you say. i think they can. but thats me and my weirdness again. i love to read. im pretty short. 5'. i look up to allot of people. physically and emotionally. the jocks call me a slut, the bland blond clones snub their noses in distaste. the teachers call me brilliant, the counselor calls me unstable. i am all of those but none of them at the same moment. people tell me im too young to have goals and know what i want from life. im not. im not fully sure what life is yet. or what my place in it is. i've fallen in love, i belive in love, but i know i haven't found the one. i know it wont for a long time. its just how things work. to me, life is just a waist of blood, a waist of breath. nothing is real, my teacher told me money, pain and pleasure are the only real things in this world, i dissagree, money's a symbol. pains a sign and pleasure is an illusion. im a fashion designer. im an artist. i do photography, i paint. i play guitar. i hate my mother at times. other times i adore her. she wont let me die my hair. smirnoff is my addiction. i drink. i get drunk. i do drugs. i get high. i'm usually really nice, but i can be a bitch if you push my buttons. judge me if you want, you will never figer me out. im confusing and complex. im not a book. if u judge me and dont know me, your stupid. because if you get to me, and are nice to me you will probley like me and we could be friends but if u just judge me good luck. dont label me i dont fit any of the labels you got. im me thats my only description. i wear skinny jeans and flats. i live in band t-shirts, lacey tank tops and bright obnoxious colors. my hair is naturally straight. i wanna either bleach it or make it black. i like to stand out, but sometimes blend in the croud.
call me what you want.
but thats all i am